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Junk Food Diaries: New Edition of A Valentine’s Day Heart Break

I took a glance at the calendar when I awoke this morning as if it would read differently:

February 14th aka Valentine’s Day!

I couldn’t believe it was happening all over again. Last year, it was that incident with Ms. Hines.

This year my mind was messed up by someone new. Someone I would have never predicted making this huge impact in my life. This feeling came out of now where.

I jumped out of bed and put on my gym clothes because I had to meet the guys at the gym. We were working on this new potential new fitness dance class.

I was hoping my boys would help get me out of my funk. We had this special sort of brotherly bond since we were kids. They had been with me for years and knew all about my earlier crushes.

As I got the gym, the guys were already there. They were in the gym’s classroom studio doing a quick stretch.

“Hey Mike…..you doing good man?”

I lied and told Ricky that I was good.

Johnny could tell I was lying:

“Mannnn…Mike we know you lying! You got it bad! You need to talk about it”

I turned my head to the mirror and tried to remember how did I get to this place……


I don’t love her
I tried to tell myself
But you can see it in my eyes
So don’t deny
I can’t fool no one else
The truth is in the tears I cry cause


It started back in August. I was casually shopping when I saw her from the corner of my eye.

I had never seen anything like her in my life!

I thought she was one of the most attractive things I’ve ever saw!

She was such a sweet looking thing!

I approached her and was able to get her phone number. Several weeks later, we were spending Saturday nights together watching Netflix at my house. It was incredible!

I remember glancing into her eyes and thinking….


If it isn’t love
Why do I feel this way
Why does she stay on my mind
If it isn’t love
Why does it hurt so bad
Make me feel so sad inside
(If it isn’t love)


I had to make sure she didn’t know how I truly was feeling.

I wasn’t ready to settle down!

There were still other girls out there that I wanted to spend time with!

We made a pact that this would just be a casual friends with benefits type relationship. She even made me promise….


I told her I’d never fall in love
But now I know better


Sometimes I would go weeks without seeing her.

Which was fine, but she was definitely on my mind. I know we didn’t want an exclusive relationship but I was catching feelings hard as the days got darker and colder.

It even hit harder that day after the New Years….


How does it feel
I can’t describe this feelin’
That came when I saw her last night (Oh)
She got to me
I’ll let you know the reason
I saw her with another guy so

If it isn’t love
Why do I feel this way
Why does she stay on my mind
If it isn’t love
Why does it hurt so bad
Make me feel so sad inside
(If it isn’t love)


I confronted her and asked her how could she do this to me. She argued back and reminded me that we were not exclusive.

She was one of the finest girls in town and knew that. All the other guys would holla at her so she wasn’t ready to settle down.

That’s when I blew my cool!

I said some things, she said some things and next thing I knew I told her that we should break up altogether and never hang out because she was just bad for me!

It was right after Martin Luther King’s Day that I started to think maybe I was wrong. I tried to call her…..


Maybe she’ll take me back
(Hey girl he’s begging)
I made a big mistake
(Won’t you forgive him girl)
Now I can feel it
(He’s never felt before)
I really love her
(You love her…WHAT!?)


Yes, I truly did love her!

I realized that nothing else in this world gave me the incredible feeling she did when we were together! Sure, I would feel bad that next day but those minutes together were some of the best times of my life!


It took my heart
To shatter in a thousand pieces
Before I’d ever drop my pride
Losing love worrying about my image
Really helped me realize that


“Yo mike!! Where you space off too?”

Oh, sorry about that guys.

“Get back in line and let’s practice this dance! We only got 30 mins to get it right”

“Man Mike……who knew that you would act this crazy over some darn Girl Scout Samoas Cookie Ice Cream!

You know you had to cut it out of your diet if you were going to lose those pounds! Man up and get over it!”

Girl Scout Samoa Ice Cream from Edy's

Yeah, Ronnie was right. It was time to let go. I had bigger dreams for my body and that girl scout ice cream was poison. But still…..

If it isn’t love
Why do I feel this way
Why does she stay on my mind
If it isn’t love
Why does it hurt so bad
Make me feel so sad inside
If it isn’t love